You stabbed me 

Repeatedly

Then watched me

Bleed

Then told me

You needed me

When I said I'd 

Leave

I ached for you

With passion

Wading in your

Perfect lies

You showed me 

No action

When you heard my

Pleas and cries

You pushed me

So violently

Into suicidal

Thoughts

As I lay there

Silently

My spirit tied 

In knots

Calling out to 

Elohim

To take me from;

And to you

And His face 

Seldom seen

Because deep down

He really knew you

Each time He would

Save me

I'd run back to your

Mayhem

Enchantingly seduced;

Separated from my 

Brainstem

Addicted to your

Sickness

Like a sweaty child

To shade

Like the poet in 

Invictus

Yah still found me

Unafraid

To live in death,

Relentless;

Wearing sorrow

Like a pendant

I issued my own 

Sentence 

As the judge 

And the defendant

My peril;

Snugly justified...

Tenacity abound

When I finally pay

Attention
You'll be nowhere 

To be 

Found.