Escaped from your

Imprisonment

And though our love

Was

Dissonant

I just can't help

Revisiting

My prison cell..

Not listening

To that small voice

Inside of me

It's constantly

Reminding me

My life's journey

A diary

Of how I reached 

Sobriety

I left behind 

The irony

Of loving with 

Entirety

This love only

Provided me

With nothing but

Anxiety

So effortlessly

You

Lie to me

You say you'll 

Change..

It frightens me

Your antipathy

So fiery

Do I deserve 

Such rivalry?

An enigma 

You are to me

Stuck close to you

Reliably

But you prefer

Variety

And acts of 

Impropriety

Discarded me

Defiantly

While I accepted 

Quietly

What reason did you

Hire me?

I did my job..

You fired me.

I loved you 

Undeniably

Left me in debt

A higher fee

The price to pay

My lifetime dream

Of bliss with my

Entire team. 

The Man Above;

Supervisory

All my pleas, and my

Inquiries

I asked Him why

He guided me

To love that just

Blindsided me..

And He replied, 

"I quite agree;

You gave yourself 

Entirely..

My plans for you were

Contrary

Your suffering;

Arbitrary."

So hurt

Unjustifiably

Yet, still;

My heart

Won't let me be

I hope someday

Decidedly

To embrace my freedom

Finally.