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As quickly as comes

Your last steady

Breath

When love becomes

Lost,

It feels like a

Death

Unrequited;

I'm pining,

My patience

Declining

Heartbeat

Like a time bomb

Counting down

My denying..

My

Spirit

Bereft;

There's 

Not much time

Left

How long

Will I

Wander?

How much 

Time

Will I 

Squander?

I’ve drifted

Miles yonder

From the

Alpha;

The Omega

Grows

Evermore

Distant..

Perhaps

Love is

Delusion

Wrapped up in

Confusion

And

This is the

Conclusion..

My dreams

Non-existent.

A Letter to My Homewrecker

You thought

Your damage

Silenced me

It only made me

More blunt

My prayers;

Letters to Yah..

Placed your offenses

At His forefront

You helped

Tear apart

My family

You thought

You wrecked

My destiny

On the contrary

Your shady ways

Shed light upon

The best in me

Your conspiracy;

Your cruelty

Once filled

My life

With dread..

But my

Love for you;

My kindness

Heaps

Hot coals

Upon your head

Our Creator

Watched

From day one

Your plot started

Years ago..

His did, too

His plan

Involves

Me up high

And you

Below

You may think

That you have won

This round..

But this is just

A season..

Your fate

Is sealed

As long as you

Destroy me

For no

Reason.

As long as there’s another will

On earth

That causes sin,

No one here

Can be immune

Evil has its way in.

That’s why it’s so

Important to

Show love to

Fellow man,

Sin is contagious..

So is joy

Elevation

Is the plan.

Opportunity

Presents itself

Sometimes

To share a gift,

Don’t waste your

Time

Bringing spirits

Down..

Use it wisely..

Uplift.

Sometimes

It hurts

To watch

The fallacies

Of all

Humanity

Sometimes

It’s truly

Difficult

To hold

Onto my

Sanity

They tell

Themselves

Convincing tales

So authentically

Designed

Believing

That the

Lies they tell

Will make you

Change your

Mind..

They

Injure you

With words

And actions

Play with your

Emotion

Make you feel

Like trusting them

Was 

Arbitrary

Devotion

Forgiveness

Seems

So hard

Most days

But certainly

Required

Yah counts

Your tears

He’s watching

Them

And He knows

You are tired

Just love your

Foes

Stay on your

Toes

Because

Yah’s eyes

See all;

His promises

Will vindicate..

Your enemies

Will

Fall.

For The Black Man

 

The heavy load

Upon your back

Was placed there

By the world

Some days,

You find

Yourself

In corners;

Your

Position;

Curled..

That’s why

You need to

Find your joy

In smaller

Quantities

When

Focused on

Adversity,

You miss

Commodities

This life is hard

For you;

No doubt..

And people

Do you

Dirty..

But don’t you

Wonder why

You suffer

Heart disease

By thirty?

Blessings exist,

They rain on you

When you

Choose

Altruism;

Tone down

Your rage..

It’s

Justified;

But so is

Optimism.

A warning

In advance..

I won’t initiate

A colloquy

Unless your

Sensitivity

Can handle

All this

Honesty

No time left

In this world

Of ours

For candy coated

Lies..

Reality

Will still be there

When you open

Your eyes

For those of you

Who fabricate

A version

Of yourselves;

To cover up

Your nudity

Because its sight

Repels;

I offer you

Encouragement..

Reveal your

Natural state

Clothing your

Insecurities

Won’t cover

All that

Weight

Your innocence

Was beautiful

In former days

Of youth..

You’re still

Lovely

But only when

Your show

Your

Naked

Truth.

My Healer

Can make miracles

From unexpected

Tragedy

Didn’t always trust His ways

But I learned to

Gradually

My faith and I

Remain here

Inevitably

Though

I’m treated by humans

Malevolently

Been hurt

Repeatedly

Couldn’t figure out

Why

Their plan

So seemingly

Was for me to

Die

Depressed and alone

I adopted their sentiment

Til hope became faint

And death became imminent

I lay there in torment

With intention

To expire

But Yah's main objective

Had a different desire

His healing hands

Revived me

He saw past my pain

My focus, on the present time;

His vision glimpsed my gain

Now

A new me emerges

The old me has died

The former; lain to rest

In my attempted

Suicide

Pride and revenge

And destructive retribution

Were once my

Predilection

But not a very wise

Solution

Yah saved me with reason

To become His reflection

He still saw potential

Through obvious imperfection

My life now

A paradigm

Whispers from

The Holy Spirit

When He offers

Suggestion

I definitely

Hear it

My steps redirected

Never planned to survive

Now

All I can say is..

Thank Yah I’m alive.

Love

Took me on a

Joyride

A  journey I thought was

Sure

But I got

Dropped off

In the wilderness

No guide to lead

My tour

And as I gaze

Around myself

No clearing

For a path

I’m in a

Mess

Of weeds and grass..

Sum of my

Aftermath

Where do you go

When your GPS

Deletes

Your destination?

How do you

Survive

When your plans are robbed

Of precise delineation?

Your compass breaks

Direction; gone

Contingency

All that remains

Hanging on

By a straining thread

To strength

Just to maintain

All I know

Is that I’m

Here

I just wish I

Knew why

My heart was

Formed

With

So much

Warmth

Just to watch it

Die

The

Warmth of skin

Goosebumps

Raising

With the

Tingling

Of you

Touching

My soul

With your

Presence

Your

Fingertips

Along my

Hairline

The nape of my

Neck

Electric

As your

Touch tells me

What I need to

Hear

That

Everything

Will be

Okay

As long as I’m

Reminded

Of your

Essence

My tears

Caught

Like raindrops

By the

Dewey leaves

Sliding

Across your

Palms

As you

Reassure me

With your

Touch

These things

I miss

So

Much

The cozy

Heat

Of residing

In your

Clutch

The

Encouragement

Of your

Voice

A whisper

Of

Breath

Along my

Neckline

Sends shivers

Through me

But was I

Never left

A

Choice

Deserted

Is my

Atmosphere

Floating in space

Gravity

Escapes

My realm

No

Body

To hold

Me

Down

No

Sound

A

Ghost town

You

Never should have

Told me

You would

Always be

Around

I am His daughter

I'm made whole

His Living Water

Quenched my soul

My thirst;

Relieved

My peace;

Received

His Son made me

Alive again

His sacrifice

Has paid the price

To make my spirit

Thrive within

He taught me wisdom

Showed me hope

His optimism

Helped me cope

He crowned me with

His promises

With Love; His name

Synonymous.

Seduced

Persuaded

By their

Senses

Counting these as

Recompenses

Oblivious

To

Consequences

To reach

The grass

Beyond those

Fences

When will they

Learn

What the

Expense is

Finding joy by

False

Pretenses

They see,

They touch..

Then truth

Commences

Life has

More

Than seen from

Lenses

May never

Know

What true

Intent is

The value of

What a

True friend is

They follow

What the

Latest

Trend is

To

Depthless

Perception

They’re defenseless

Their solace in

Empty

Incentives

Fraudulent

Phony

Ostensive

Not love;

But only

Flesh

Convinces..

I pray

They’ll find

What light

Within is

Your aura

Had me

So distraught

Your love

Was lessons,

Growth;

It taught..

For years

You jabbed

At my

Weak spot

You crowd me

Like an

Afterthought..

Does your

Mind wander

Near to me?

I wonder; though,

It's clear to see..

All yours

I am not

Here to be..

Our

Love

Exists

In

Theory.

For My Children

 

He said to me,

"I have a gift,

When you feel

Frail

They will

Uplift,

They'll guide you

When

You lose your way,

When all have

Left you,

They will pray.."

I nod, to show I

Understand,

He asked me to

Outstretch my

Hand,

And in it, He placed

Seven jewels.

He said, "Don't fret

I'll give you

Tools

To keep these

Precious stones

Maintained;

There'll be times

When

You feel drained,

They'll give you

Purpose,

Such delight;

Their radiance

Will be your light."

And those jewels

Did

Just what He'd said,

When times were

Dark

Their light was

Shed

They gave me

Reasons

Every day

To keep

Momentum

In my sway..

Such blessings are

These jewels to me

At times, I feel so

Unworthy

But yet, so glad

Such joy they

Bring

Those precious stones

Are my offspring.

I cheated Death..

We played a game

He cheated first..

Used my disdain

As a cheat code

For the win..

He hadn't met

The Christ within..

He said, "You're weak,

Just follow me,

You can be my

Casualty.."

My spirit; crushed

My patience

Hushed..

My power boost

Was missing;

Trust..

Until

Death led me

To the

Ledge..

He pushed me;

I

Leapt off the

Edge

But

There beneath me

Two big hands..

I landed safely

In His

Plans..

He'd

Never left me

All that time

What I thought was

The finish line

Was just

The next board

"Round 2..

Fight!"

I'm

Winning

In this

Game called

Life.

Unrequited

Your heart

Transparent

Theirs;

Concealing

All they claimed

That they were

Feeling

And like a

Wallflower

You kept

Dealing

With a love so

Unrevealing

Your spirit;

Somber

As you're

Kneeling

Seemingly

Your prayers

Hit the

Ceiling..

As time goes by;

Begins

Unreeling,

This love

Appears now

Unappealing..

You gave your

Soul;

But now, it's

Stealing

Your joy..

It's now time

For your

Healing.

Despair

It cradled me

A paralyzing

Embrace

A dilemma

Looking up to

Yah

With a straight face..

"Where are you?"

I wondered..

"I need you now;

So unfair..

I say 'now,'

You say 'here,'

But that equals

Nowhere

My insides are

Wrenching

With weakened jaws

Clenching..

Like paint

With no easel..

A splash

In midair;

Were the

Prayers

That I

Sent Him up,

Wielding an

Empty cup

Bewilderment

Shadowing;

My spirit

Threadbare..

Then one day

Months later

After patience

Galore..

A smile

Broke the

Anguish

I knew what

It was for..

In hindsight;

Humiliation

Transformed to

Humility

I quietly

Endured

Even when it was

Killing me..

While I was

So fixated

On my

Miniscule

Vision..

Yah was

Fine-tuning my

Strength

With precision..

Laid out a

Red carpet

Of blessings

Before me..

I thought He

Ignored me

Truth is..

He adored me.

Bible says, "beauty is fleeting.."

Yes.. Sadly, it will fade..

But; by far, inner beauty

Has exterior

Outweighed..

When that which is

Internal

Is genuinely displayed;

Its radiance is lambent..

Untouchable

By shade.

Imagine that you're

In a maze

With darkness all around..

Your eyes are useless

So you're forced

To find your way

With sound..

The things you hear

Can fool you..

You walk into a wall

Oh, love..

Why did you push me?

I was trying not to

F

A

L

L...

What if I

Had died that day?

So many

Would be hurt

If, instead

Of in my bed

I lay to sleep

In dirt..

What if I

Weren't here

To see

The Diamond

I've become?

What if I

Never

Knew my

Strength

To strive

And overcome?

The days got

Rough..

But I was

Tough

Not weak..

As it may seem;

What if an

Angel

Lives as

Me

And life

Is but

A dream?

For Amaris

 

Put everyone

Before you..

You were always

Last

In line..

Through layers

Of

Obligation;

You found it

Difficult

To shine..

But now

You're

Unassisted;

Self-reliant

On your

Own;

With grief,

You co-existed

But now,

Look how much you've

Grown..

We got through this

Together

We're bonded through

Our trials;

I'll stick with you

Forever..

In your shoes

I've walked

For miles.

I closed my eyes

A moment's blink

Before I had

A chance to think..

Beheld the image

Of a dove

Flying freely

Filled with love.

And as I smiled;

Immediately

I knew that dove

Was really me

And though

It was

The dark of night;

My feathers

Shimmered

Glowing bright.

Forgiveness

Triumphs

Over spite

The dark cannot

Reside with light

When you

Allow your pain

To cease

Your heart

Unfolds

And you find

Peace.

"All I need

Is just your soul..

And in exchange

I'll give you gold

Houses, cars

You name your

Wishes.."

"Don't buy that spiel!

It's all fictitious!

Just a ploy;

Manipulation

To deter your

Destination..

The road is narrow

This is true;

That's why it's only

Walked by few."

"Just hold on,

There, I wasn't

Through..

She's got her

Own mind

Let her choose!

Bro, I got

Diamonds

Fame galore,

What u listening to

This loser for?"

"Nah, bruh,

You lost..

Your home is hell..

Banished to

A fiery cell

How dare you

Try

To take her with you

After all the hell

She's been through?

My Father

Up there

Knows your pain.

He just wants you

To call His name

When things become

Unbearable..

Your other option?

Terrible..

I see your suffering

And I cry

Cuz you don't know

That

Way up high,

You have friends

You can't even see..

We're rooting for

Your destiny.

So, please don't fret

Your place is set

Beside your best friend

You've not met..

He loves you so;

He died for you.

The choice is yours..

What you gon do?"

Spent so much time

Resisting you..

It's all my fault..

I'm twisting you

Into something

You can't be..

Hurtful

Shady

Fatal

To me..

Spent all my

Lifetime

Giving you;

It's time to start

Forgiving you..

For being falsely

Misrepresented

Your true form is

Unprecedented

So, I pray now

That you'll find me

My sordid past is

Behind me

All I ask is

Please be kind..

I need you how

Yahweh

Designed.

I get lost

For awhile..

From the

Chaos..

Exile

Big crowds

Ain't my style..

That environment

Hostile..

Seclusion;

Worthwhile

I daydream..

Then smile

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